6'th sense. Seeing what people think of you.

As far as i can remember i was very shy in front of people who were different than me.

I think over that years i found the reason.

Here's my Youtube Channel for anyone interested.

One Example is a guy who became a friend of mine for a short amount of time.
He was introduced to me by my Current Best Friend.

He was a person with a Rude Personality, tall, strong but stupid with no manners or knowing where to draw a line between a Joke and being Rude.
Well at first i just stupidly tried to cope with his violent behaviour towards me which consisted of Shoulder punching me as a Joke, i myself considered to be a Joke as well but the punches got stronger and stronger, when at the end punches werent just headed towards my shoulders.
This one day me and my best friend try to make him start watching Anime.

We firstly show him a Boxing Anime which he loved. After some time me and my friend go to his place and watch some episodes, he gets all hyped up and starts punching stuff to imitate the guy from the Anime, he starts off with a fake Punching Bag which was his Army Clothing Bag, then he started to throw punches to me, i tried to guard him off and was all happily involved in the Joke...

But then one of his Punches hits me in my face, he wasnt sorry at all, from that point on things with him didnt feel right. I'm like: This guy isnt thinking... He's just another Macho-NoBrains-Mine is bigger than yours guy.

He would slowly start to Insult me when i would make jokes.
I would say a Joke for Example for the 3 of us and in the middle of the Joke he would just say: Shut up, dont speak and laugh hysterically.
Other times he would threaten me in what he thinks is a friendly thing to do.
He would say: Hey dont speak or i'll punch you, and constantly remind me by raising his fist towards me every time i spoke.

Needless to say, after 2-3 months of being his "Friend" i get tired of this shit and Block him off MSN. And all communication is cut off finally, i stop going out with my other friend because when we go out usually the other guy comes as well, so i sacrificed that.

Now here's what happened recently.
After 3 More months after i stoped talking to him.
I went to my friend's house and played some Xbox with him on his Birthday since he wasnt doing a party for it or anything.
We play there for 2 hours till his bedroom door opens and i see.... THE ASSHOLE.
Yes the other guy just came in Uninvited.

Oh crap... What now.
He says hi to my friend and shakes hands with me and say some new year's greeting that we say when it's easter which is done between everyone.
He sits there and talks to my friend blablablabla.
Then at some point we are playing some Racing game against each other, and starts sprouting out his bullshitty Insulting on how i'm stupid and shoulnt play the game and how he's gonna beat me.

He beat me twice at first but then i got used to playing the game. It's an ability of mine. All i need is 1-3 tries in a Game to get used to it. And when i do i'm abnormally good... Yes i'm Bragging. But it's true :P
Now i'm beating him and my friend on every single race.
The guy gets pissed off and starts punching me with his stupid laughing as if i'm some lower being, i'm ofc guarding with my hands who are taking all the blows.

After some time i just give up on trying to be in the same room with him and find an excuse and leave.
Now i'm not even going to my best friend's place in case the other guy comes in uninvited again.



That's an example of an Idiot.





Now lets move on to the more psychological secretive forms of seing what people think of me.
Call me crazy but here's one of the millions of stories i have on the subject.

For example Today i went to a friend's house who is a Computer Nerd, Game nerd.
We hadnt met up for quite some time so i decided to drop by his place, as he never drops by mine.
We played our games on his PC blablabla.
Moving on the main part. His little sister which is around 16 or possibly 17 comes in his bedroom and asks me for some Anime Recomendations.
And as always i hear her mom just yelling for her: HELEN.... COME CLEAN UP.

ok ok Leo, dont get too paranoid it's not because she wants to protect her daugter from you.
Not really, i thought the exact opossite.
-Then after 30 minutes she comes in the room again bringing us Cake and Juice...
Yet another Yell from her mom.

Now 1 hour afterwards her other sister which is around 17-18 possibly, came into his room wearing her mom's old dress with a smiley face asking us: Hey hey does this look good on me?
I'm all like: No, it's too big for you. ( in a joking manner )
Her: oh noo it isntt :(

Then her brother who doesnt like his sisters coming into his room when i'm there shoo's her away as he always does with his sisters and mother.

She goes in her room which is just right next door.
I'm talking to my friend about the game we are playing but at the same time i'm concentrating on what the girls next door are saying.
Her mother is lecturing them in a low tone so i dont hear.
Pst pst, what are you doing? Dont go in doing that, he's ******.

Yeah as always it's something about me.


Today another incident that happened to me.
I had planned to go to a friend's place and play the guitar with him. He's a person who has a high position in his friends, like the leader of the pack you can say. Full of confidence wearing his Goth Cloting and earings.
I was going to his place which is 27 KM away from mine, as always i'm the one to drive to their place because no one comes to my place. ( i wonder why )

SUPRISE. The police stops me for speeding. Did 115Km in an 80Km Limit Road which cost me 60 Euro's ouch.... and i was trying to save up and not waste my money. Cop Pigs. :( I think i might of done 100Km max but i didnt say anything, because well.... They are the cops.

I take my Ticket pissed off and just drive to this guy's house when i suddenly get an SMS saying: Hey lets meet at Starbucks, our Drummer isnt coming she wants to oversleep some more.
( It's 3 in the Afternoon btw )

I'm pissed off even more at this point, since i'm going to his place to practice and play some songs with the Drummer and him with me playing the guitar.
But i got my 60 Euro ticket and yet i'm going to a place that's pointless to me. Starbucks? Wtf am i supposed to do there?
People in my country go there for no actual reason. They order a 6 Euro Coffee and sit there like fucking queens for the entire day and do nothing.

After stoping aside the road to think over on wether i want to go to Starbucks at all after all this i decide to go for it even though i'm tremendously pissed off.
I go to starbucks, the guy comes late, we sit there for 40 Minutes and talk about random shit.
He stares at some women sitting behind me telling me to turn around and look at them, then calls me shy for not wanting to do so.
I'm at this point starting to analyze what he might be thinking through his attitude and the way he talked to me.
From the way he was sitting in front of me i realised he didnt want to be there with me, so i tried to keep him entertained by saying some random jokes or talking about music.
Then the oh so convenient SMS on his mobile phone comes along and he says... Oh sorry man i need to go to some friend's and Drink beer with them, do you want to come as well?
Me: Sorry man you know i dont really like alcohol
Him: You should come along like that you might get a Girl to fuck you.

oook.....

Well at this point we shake hands say goodbye and i go home while he parties with his friends and the other stupid bitch is at her place sleeping.
I'm having thoughts that that guy went to the party with her. It's not impossible.







Another one which is a very minor incident, but happens all the time irl.

I just parked in my job's parking lot. I get out of my car and hear a sigh'ing voice of a woman saying: Jesus Christ Virging Mary ( It's what it roughly translates from Greek )
I'm thinking: Oh yeah she's definatelly doing that at me.

I turn my head around to see her watching me.
I stop and stare at her with an angry face in the eyes from 12 meeters away.
She turns her head away from mine and walks inside the door she was hanging on.

It somewhat made my day that i stared back at her.




Back at school, at either high school or college or University it was the same.
Some people you could talk to, others were considered taboo to talk to because of their status in the class as higher beings.
You could just say they dont like you by the fact that they dont talk to you.
Sometimes they would talk to me with stupid Sarcastic questions, which made me think of them as stupid beings with no reason of being in the classroom than to make other people miserable.
At College, i asked a Girl if she wanted to go out with me, and she turned to her Girlfriends and started laughing Hysterically.
I did the same thing to a couple of other girls during my College period, and then i quit any attempts to do so to other women.
It's too bad that women in Cyprus ( where i live ) are extremely stuck up. Unless you have a 6 Pack you dont stand a chance, and thats not over reacting. Our women must be the most stuck up one in the entire world.

I've never had a Girl Friend, as in just being a Friend nothing more. With most of the guys in the class it was the same except possibly 1 guy per class. But that was just High School.


At University life was hard, i never lived what you call a Uni Student's Life. Drinking / Going out.
Everyone had friends at Uni, i also had one for a small while.

He introduced me to his friends with which we would sit with everyday during breaks and do play cards or whatever with them in the cafeteria.
Then my friend stoped going to University and i was totally alone...
I couldnt become close enough friends with the guys from my class, and the guys he introduced me to didnt have enough chairs for extra people to sit with them.

So i started off alone again...
Till the point that the guy quit college for once in my life i had good grades and i was doing my best to study.
Then as it always happened i started failing classes, lost the concentration and studying passion i had for those 6 months.
At the end i stoped going to University and just sat in my car in a distant place where no one could find me and spent the day there, went back home where my parents thought i was going to school.

Going to University was like hell. No friends no nothing, having random people look at you... Being nervous all the time.
I couldnt take it anymore.

So i quit and started looking for a Job.
I had a Cisco Diploma and a lot of PC experience and knowledge, more than the people in my class did who just took up computers because they thought it would be easy to memorise the books inside out and write for the exams, get their diplomas and get out of there, but in the end they would know nothing about computers and yet still get hired in some company and do anothing all day....

Yep that's how it is done here.


Anyway after 6 months of Job Searching and getting rejected by Every single Shitty Computer Technician Job there was in my Local City and Suburbs i got really frustrated that some assholes i knew who didnt had no Cisco Qualifications or any qualifications and knew nothing about PC's got hired as Computer Technicians in a Goverment Agency.
Being in the Government usually means sitting on your ass all day and get paid for it.

I got Declined from shitty small businesses of shops with 2-5 people running them. They never gave me a reason. They just called me for an Interview, after the interview was over i never got a reponse by them again.

This one guy Hired me out of 30 though...
He offered me the MINIMUM wage you can pay a guy. 700 Euros. And i accepted.
The day i started is when my new hell started.

My Coworker was a Pscyhologically Disturbed Individual who Sighed in my face all the time, said random swear words from time to time to NO ONE, in a room with the 2 of us.
I beared with him everyday for 20 days...

Now to the parts of the job they never told me about.

I had to drive for 4 hours everyday and Deliver PC's and Fix random stuff at client's places.
This was not in the Job Description.
I'm a Computer Technician which in their case meant i would fix PC's in the STORE, not drive with my own car and gas and Deliver them and fix them.
Anyway i beared with that as well, i had to drive in the most heavy trafic every day for 4 hours with my own car and gas which they never paid for me.

This was a 4 Man Company. Me my Coworker the Secretary who was sitting on her butt all day and the Boss who was also sitting on his ass all day and would come in with his slippers riding his shiny mercedes to work.

On Fridays the boss would Order Pizza for the 3 of them. They would Sneak the Pizza to the Upper Floor and tell me to go downstairs and look for any Phone calls or customers that come in.
They would eat the Pizza by themselfs, never offer me a piece and go back to work.

The boss was a very Kind Faced person. But i realised it's all just an ACT. But his face was very very kind you would think he's jesus.
But in the End i realised. He made me accept a 700Euro Minimum Wage, make me take my own car and do deliveries as a Computer Technician, not give me any Pizza.

FUCK THIS.
One day right before i was gonna go out and deliver stuff, i went to the secretary and told her i'm quiting, can i have my paycheck?
Her: What? I dont think i can do that.
Me: Why not?
Her: Because i dont think it's possible.

After some arguing she never paid me and i left her with 6 Boxes and Printers Undelivered.

Now i found a Job that is a Priviledge to do in my country since there's NO ONE else in working in this sector in my country.

VOIP Engineering with 3CX Phone Systems. I'm a Software tester and Support Engineer.
Where i live there arent jobs like these, this company is owned by a foreigner that i luckily found out about online and i sent him my CV.
After some tests i got accepted and get paid 1k Euro Per Month as a 21 Year old which is extremely good.
Young people here have to get jobs as Waiters in Bars and get 800-850 Euro per month no matter if the have a Diploma in something, it's WAAAY to hard to get a Job. And to think all Graduates are 24-25 years old.
That happens to be the age that people are accepted into Cypriot Companies, they wont take Younger people. They rarely make exceptions to that rule and when they do, they pay Mediocrely.

And here i got the Job i Deserved and Longed for and i get paid good for it.
It's almost time for my promotion in 1 month or so, i'm being told i'm geting a 25% Pay increase.
That's 1250 Euro per month.

In your Face little 4 man companies that offered me 700 and 800 Euros per month for a Shitty job with no future. Now go and see if you can find yourself a 25 year old graduate that knows how to make a computer from scratch for you.