I hate an insane amount of people

It all started a year ago or so...

I started Closing myself into a little protective shield against anyone who hurt me or tried to hurt me.
It started off with hanging out with a group of idiots who as a gang played a game online called World of Warcraft, they started fights with me over little stuff like why i wont waste my time and go help them do a quest in-game or help them level up their characters.
After many many fights and making up with them i got tired of getting hurt all the time by their bullshit and i started shutting them off one by one.
Today i'm not hanging out with any of these people, i've blocked them off MSN blocked their phone numbers.

There was this one guy in particular that was supposedly one of my closest friends although his intentions were the ones of a person who just wanted to use me for personal gain.
Whenever his PC was broken he would Invite me to his place to hang out.
I would fall in his trap and when i arrived he would ask me to fix his PC in a Convenient manner.
Cookies and Juice were always waiting for me after i fixed the PC, after that i wasnt needed anymore, he would remember he had urgent business with some of his FRIENDS and had to go meet them.

AHEM.... What am i? I'm not your Friend?
Ok...
This guy also happened to be a big beggar as he was the worst of the bunch that i mentioned above, he would ask me like a crybaby to do favours for him and if i didnt do them for him he would stop being my friend for a week and then call me on my mobile phone to " Make up "
But in reality his PC broke down again and just needed me to fix it for him.
This went on for a couple of Years until i got tired of these mind games and shut him off too.
But he was persistent...
He would call me over and over and i would swear about him and try to do everything to keep him away from me.... But no. He simply didnt want me to go away, he needed his PC fixing, favour doing friend. After 6 Months of him calling me in 1-2 week intervals i happened to say that his mother and family are pigs and after that he didnt ever call me again.
Mission Complete.



The next story is about a guy i met in Elementary School who called me whenever his PC also broke down or his friends PC's broke down.
He called me once a year for this kind of thing. He would appear as a good friend-person but in fact he was just another guy who wanted to use me for his own selfish stuff.
As i said he called only once a year, but for him to call me year after year and wanting me to do Hardware or Software repairs for FREE was simply...
So this one time i just got tired of these free service phone calls i decided it's time to make this guy go away.
He calls...
I answer...
-Him: Hey Leo i have Job for you mate.
-Me: Yeah what is it?
-Him: A couple of PC's that need to be Formated and have some hardware problems, i dont know exactly but they are in bad shape.
-Me: Sure mate, but at the moment i'm charging 30 Euro's per PC if that's ok.
-Him:Beep....Beep.....Beep....Beep

I shit you not.
That's the last i ever heard of him.




Remember the Psycho Bitch from my last post?
Well she appearently made her Boyfriend make a post about me on some forum saying: Hey btw, Leenix is a Virgin.

Which is true but not such a bad thing when the majority of people here are Virgins.
But what was funny for me is that this guy was 19 years old or less. So lets say i believe he's actually fucked before. Good for you kiddo, get that Girl pregnant, i'll laugh my ass off.
Little Prick...



Here's a couple of people i'm gonna shut off soon.

1 x A Weed Smoking American 19 year old.
Reason: She isnt really interested in playing the Drums in the So called band i've been trying to make for quite some times. She preferes weed smoking with friends, hangovers, oversleeping and missing practice.
Oh and she's always broke and need me to buy her stuff when we are at a Cafe.

Sorry... I'm not your little whore anymore. Oh and thanks for the Bass guitar, i'll keep that.



1 x A Goth Dressing Posing, Unemployed 21 year who's too bored to look for a job.
Reason: He's always broke and doesnt want to use his bike to drive 2Km to come to Practice.
Did i mention that he's broke and doesnt have a car?


I have to drive to these people's houses to play the guitar, no one EVER comes to my place everyone is around 30Km away from me so thanks a lot guys.
He's gonna get shut off as well starting today.





The only place where people are mature enough not to be such arrogant assholes is at my job.
Everyone is over 26, most are in their 40's+
So far nothing like this has happened with them, and i'm pretty close to them... I mean i go there everday.




Here's a story about a guy who never made time for me.

Ever since High School he would give me a shitload of excuses on why i couldnt go to his place and have some fun on a weekend.
He would usually say... : Hey you can come for a day during this Xmas.

Oh yeaah Fun fun fun...
NOT.

He isnt the kind of person who need me in his life so neither me or him have bothered calling each other, so it's considered a dead relationship.






Now about a guy who was my best friend as a kid but after we grew up decided i'm not needed anymore.
He would stay at my place for 10 hours a day playing on my Atari Console but we were good friends anyways.
After we grew up and started going to college, i tried calling him to ask if i can come to his place and spend some time with him.
He said ok... I went there brought him some Anime he wanted, copied them for him.
Afterwards we played a bit on His PS2 for an Hour or so, then all hell broke loose.
He "Receved" an sms from his friends inviting him to go meet them.
I kinda believed him at first...
Then he dressed up and all, not so good now that i think of it.
We both got out of his house went to the parking lot where i took my car and got in the road...
But as i watched behind me, my friend was still in his car and didnt start the engine...

He was still sitting there waiting for me to Leave is what i suspected.
I so i leave the neighbourhood and park in a nearby Gas station for a couple of minutes, then drive back to see if my assumption was real.
Indeed it was...
The car was still there and he went back into the house.


AM I REALLY SUCH A NUISANCE TO YOU?
Anyway you can all go fuck yourselfs now, because i'm better than you will ever be. Go live your petty lives like the Idiotic narrow minded pricks you are and leave me alone.

6'th sense. Seeing what people think of you.

As far as i can remember i was very shy in front of people who were different than me.

I think over that years i found the reason.

Here's my Youtube Channel for anyone interested.

One Example is a guy who became a friend of mine for a short amount of time.
He was introduced to me by my Current Best Friend.

He was a person with a Rude Personality, tall, strong but stupid with no manners or knowing where to draw a line between a Joke and being Rude.
Well at first i just stupidly tried to cope with his violent behaviour towards me which consisted of Shoulder punching me as a Joke, i myself considered to be a Joke as well but the punches got stronger and stronger, when at the end punches werent just headed towards my shoulders.
This one day me and my best friend try to make him start watching Anime.

We firstly show him a Boxing Anime which he loved. After some time me and my friend go to his place and watch some episodes, he gets all hyped up and starts punching stuff to imitate the guy from the Anime, he starts off with a fake Punching Bag which was his Army Clothing Bag, then he started to throw punches to me, i tried to guard him off and was all happily involved in the Joke...

But then one of his Punches hits me in my face, he wasnt sorry at all, from that point on things with him didnt feel right. I'm like: This guy isnt thinking... He's just another Macho-NoBrains-Mine is bigger than yours guy.

He would slowly start to Insult me when i would make jokes.
I would say a Joke for Example for the 3 of us and in the middle of the Joke he would just say: Shut up, dont speak and laugh hysterically.
Other times he would threaten me in what he thinks is a friendly thing to do.
He would say: Hey dont speak or i'll punch you, and constantly remind me by raising his fist towards me every time i spoke.

Needless to say, after 2-3 months of being his "Friend" i get tired of this shit and Block him off MSN. And all communication is cut off finally, i stop going out with my other friend because when we go out usually the other guy comes as well, so i sacrificed that.

Now here's what happened recently.
After 3 More months after i stoped talking to him.
I went to my friend's house and played some Xbox with him on his Birthday since he wasnt doing a party for it or anything.
We play there for 2 hours till his bedroom door opens and i see.... THE ASSHOLE.
Yes the other guy just came in Uninvited.

Oh crap... What now.
He says hi to my friend and shakes hands with me and say some new year's greeting that we say when it's easter which is done between everyone.
He sits there and talks to my friend blablablabla.
Then at some point we are playing some Racing game against each other, and starts sprouting out his bullshitty Insulting on how i'm stupid and shoulnt play the game and how he's gonna beat me.

He beat me twice at first but then i got used to playing the game. It's an ability of mine. All i need is 1-3 tries in a Game to get used to it. And when i do i'm abnormally good... Yes i'm Bragging. But it's true :P
Now i'm beating him and my friend on every single race.
The guy gets pissed off and starts punching me with his stupid laughing as if i'm some lower being, i'm ofc guarding with my hands who are taking all the blows.

After some time i just give up on trying to be in the same room with him and find an excuse and leave.
Now i'm not even going to my best friend's place in case the other guy comes in uninvited again.



That's an example of an Idiot.





Now lets move on to the more psychological secretive forms of seing what people think of me.
Call me crazy but here's one of the millions of stories i have on the subject.

For example Today i went to a friend's house who is a Computer Nerd, Game nerd.
We hadnt met up for quite some time so i decided to drop by his place, as he never drops by mine.
We played our games on his PC blablabla.
Moving on the main part. His little sister which is around 16 or possibly 17 comes in his bedroom and asks me for some Anime Recomendations.
And as always i hear her mom just yelling for her: HELEN.... COME CLEAN UP.

ok ok Leo, dont get too paranoid it's not because she wants to protect her daugter from you.
Not really, i thought the exact opossite.
-Then after 30 minutes she comes in the room again bringing us Cake and Juice...
Yet another Yell from her mom.

Now 1 hour afterwards her other sister which is around 17-18 possibly, came into his room wearing her mom's old dress with a smiley face asking us: Hey hey does this look good on me?
I'm all like: No, it's too big for you. ( in a joking manner )
Her: oh noo it isntt :(

Then her brother who doesnt like his sisters coming into his room when i'm there shoo's her away as he always does with his sisters and mother.

She goes in her room which is just right next door.
I'm talking to my friend about the game we are playing but at the same time i'm concentrating on what the girls next door are saying.
Her mother is lecturing them in a low tone so i dont hear.
Pst pst, what are you doing? Dont go in doing that, he's ******.

Yeah as always it's something about me.


Today another incident that happened to me.
I had planned to go to a friend's place and play the guitar with him. He's a person who has a high position in his friends, like the leader of the pack you can say. Full of confidence wearing his Goth Cloting and earings.
I was going to his place which is 27 KM away from mine, as always i'm the one to drive to their place because no one comes to my place. ( i wonder why )

SUPRISE. The police stops me for speeding. Did 115Km in an 80Km Limit Road which cost me 60 Euro's ouch.... and i was trying to save up and not waste my money. Cop Pigs. :( I think i might of done 100Km max but i didnt say anything, because well.... They are the cops.

I take my Ticket pissed off and just drive to this guy's house when i suddenly get an SMS saying: Hey lets meet at Starbucks, our Drummer isnt coming she wants to oversleep some more.
( It's 3 in the Afternoon btw )

I'm pissed off even more at this point, since i'm going to his place to practice and play some songs with the Drummer and him with me playing the guitar.
But i got my 60 Euro ticket and yet i'm going to a place that's pointless to me. Starbucks? Wtf am i supposed to do there?
People in my country go there for no actual reason. They order a 6 Euro Coffee and sit there like fucking queens for the entire day and do nothing.

After stoping aside the road to think over on wether i want to go to Starbucks at all after all this i decide to go for it even though i'm tremendously pissed off.
I go to starbucks, the guy comes late, we sit there for 40 Minutes and talk about random shit.
He stares at some women sitting behind me telling me to turn around and look at them, then calls me shy for not wanting to do so.
I'm at this point starting to analyze what he might be thinking through his attitude and the way he talked to me.
From the way he was sitting in front of me i realised he didnt want to be there with me, so i tried to keep him entertained by saying some random jokes or talking about music.
Then the oh so convenient SMS on his mobile phone comes along and he says... Oh sorry man i need to go to some friend's and Drink beer with them, do you want to come as well?
Me: Sorry man you know i dont really like alcohol
Him: You should come along like that you might get a Girl to fuck you.

oook.....

Well at this point we shake hands say goodbye and i go home while he parties with his friends and the other stupid bitch is at her place sleeping.
I'm having thoughts that that guy went to the party with her. It's not impossible.







Another one which is a very minor incident, but happens all the time irl.

I just parked in my job's parking lot. I get out of my car and hear a sigh'ing voice of a woman saying: Jesus Christ Virging Mary ( It's what it roughly translates from Greek )
I'm thinking: Oh yeah she's definatelly doing that at me.

I turn my head around to see her watching me.
I stop and stare at her with an angry face in the eyes from 12 meeters away.
She turns her head away from mine and walks inside the door she was hanging on.

It somewhat made my day that i stared back at her.




Back at school, at either high school or college or University it was the same.
Some people you could talk to, others were considered taboo to talk to because of their status in the class as higher beings.
You could just say they dont like you by the fact that they dont talk to you.
Sometimes they would talk to me with stupid Sarcastic questions, which made me think of them as stupid beings with no reason of being in the classroom than to make other people miserable.
At College, i asked a Girl if she wanted to go out with me, and she turned to her Girlfriends and started laughing Hysterically.
I did the same thing to a couple of other girls during my College period, and then i quit any attempts to do so to other women.
It's too bad that women in Cyprus ( where i live ) are extremely stuck up. Unless you have a 6 Pack you dont stand a chance, and thats not over reacting. Our women must be the most stuck up one in the entire world.

I've never had a Girl Friend, as in just being a Friend nothing more. With most of the guys in the class it was the same except possibly 1 guy per class. But that was just High School.


At University life was hard, i never lived what you call a Uni Student's Life. Drinking / Going out.
Everyone had friends at Uni, i also had one for a small while.

He introduced me to his friends with which we would sit with everyday during breaks and do play cards or whatever with them in the cafeteria.
Then my friend stoped going to University and i was totally alone...
I couldnt become close enough friends with the guys from my class, and the guys he introduced me to didnt have enough chairs for extra people to sit with them.

So i started off alone again...
Till the point that the guy quit college for once in my life i had good grades and i was doing my best to study.
Then as it always happened i started failing classes, lost the concentration and studying passion i had for those 6 months.
At the end i stoped going to University and just sat in my car in a distant place where no one could find me and spent the day there, went back home where my parents thought i was going to school.

Going to University was like hell. No friends no nothing, having random people look at you... Being nervous all the time.
I couldnt take it anymore.

So i quit and started looking for a Job.
I had a Cisco Diploma and a lot of PC experience and knowledge, more than the people in my class did who just took up computers because they thought it would be easy to memorise the books inside out and write for the exams, get their diplomas and get out of there, but in the end they would know nothing about computers and yet still get hired in some company and do anothing all day....

Yep that's how it is done here.


Anyway after 6 months of Job Searching and getting rejected by Every single Shitty Computer Technician Job there was in my Local City and Suburbs i got really frustrated that some assholes i knew who didnt had no Cisco Qualifications or any qualifications and knew nothing about PC's got hired as Computer Technicians in a Goverment Agency.
Being in the Government usually means sitting on your ass all day and get paid for it.

I got Declined from shitty small businesses of shops with 2-5 people running them. They never gave me a reason. They just called me for an Interview, after the interview was over i never got a reponse by them again.

This one guy Hired me out of 30 though...
He offered me the MINIMUM wage you can pay a guy. 700 Euros. And i accepted.
The day i started is when my new hell started.

My Coworker was a Pscyhologically Disturbed Individual who Sighed in my face all the time, said random swear words from time to time to NO ONE, in a room with the 2 of us.
I beared with him everyday for 20 days...

Now to the parts of the job they never told me about.

I had to drive for 4 hours everyday and Deliver PC's and Fix random stuff at client's places.
This was not in the Job Description.
I'm a Computer Technician which in their case meant i would fix PC's in the STORE, not drive with my own car and gas and Deliver them and fix them.
Anyway i beared with that as well, i had to drive in the most heavy trafic every day for 4 hours with my own car and gas which they never paid for me.

This was a 4 Man Company. Me my Coworker the Secretary who was sitting on her butt all day and the Boss who was also sitting on his ass all day and would come in with his slippers riding his shiny mercedes to work.

On Fridays the boss would Order Pizza for the 3 of them. They would Sneak the Pizza to the Upper Floor and tell me to go downstairs and look for any Phone calls or customers that come in.
They would eat the Pizza by themselfs, never offer me a piece and go back to work.

The boss was a very Kind Faced person. But i realised it's all just an ACT. But his face was very very kind you would think he's jesus.
But in the End i realised. He made me accept a 700Euro Minimum Wage, make me take my own car and do deliveries as a Computer Technician, not give me any Pizza.

FUCK THIS.
One day right before i was gonna go out and deliver stuff, i went to the secretary and told her i'm quiting, can i have my paycheck?
Her: What? I dont think i can do that.
Me: Why not?
Her: Because i dont think it's possible.

After some arguing she never paid me and i left her with 6 Boxes and Printers Undelivered.

Now i found a Job that is a Priviledge to do in my country since there's NO ONE else in working in this sector in my country.

VOIP Engineering with 3CX Phone Systems. I'm a Software tester and Support Engineer.
Where i live there arent jobs like these, this company is owned by a foreigner that i luckily found out about online and i sent him my CV.
After some tests i got accepted and get paid 1k Euro Per Month as a 21 Year old which is extremely good.
Young people here have to get jobs as Waiters in Bars and get 800-850 Euro per month no matter if the have a Diploma in something, it's WAAAY to hard to get a Job. And to think all Graduates are 24-25 years old.
That happens to be the age that people are accepted into Cypriot Companies, they wont take Younger people. They rarely make exceptions to that rule and when they do, they pay Mediocrely.

And here i got the Job i Deserved and Longed for and i get paid good for it.
It's almost time for my promotion in 1 month or so, i'm being told i'm geting a 25% Pay increase.
That's 1250 Euro per month.

In your Face little 4 man companies that offered me 700 and 800 Euros per month for a Shitty job with no future. Now go and see if you can find yourself a 25 year old graduate that knows how to make a computer from scratch for you.

Being Shy... The reason behind it...

I finally thought i'd make myself a Blog.

After some thought i came up with some answers on why i'm shy.
A few weeks ago i went to a Bar for the First time, some Forum i'm a member of Decided to have a Meeting there so i gathered up some courage and decided to go.

Before i go on i have to mention that i made a friend ( not really ) on the forum. She was Female... :O
Yeah sounds exciting and all, but it really isnt.
Anyways, i added her on MSN and chatted around about Anime and J-Dramas. She even suggested some for me.
One of the ones she Suggested to me wasnt all so good because it seemed like a low budget crappy acting Drama...
Well as any person i told her i didnt really like it much for the reasons i wrote above...

SHE WENT MAD...
She suddenly started typing in a completely different way, in a more serious frightening way as if she snapped, as if you told her that her mother is a whore or something.
She started an E-Fight on MSN asking why i hated it, telling me that i'm a stubborn person as well as telling me a lot of other stuff.

Anyway that was the First time she snapped and i talked it through with her for about an hour of MSN chatting trying to calm her down.

Now back to the Bar Meeting.
As i said it was my first time to a Bar even though i'm 21 Years Old.
Now as i was walking towards the Bar i was walking towards her, and she was walking towards me as if we were on a Date, it was a weird feeling.
Before i went there, a few days back on MSN she told me she broke up with her Boyfriend so i went there with the thought that it could possibly mean the start of a good relationship.

Anyway we stand in front of eachother and we say : Hi to each other.
We both Immediatelly knew who we were...
We sat outside the Bar setup some chairs for the people who were gonna come afterwards... at this point people from the Forum started flowing in. Did some Handshakes with them said a Hi and left them alone since as it seemed, they came as a Group of Friends, you can say that they had their own gang.

Moving along... Another gang of 17-18 year olds flows in, one of them Recognises me from one of my Youtube Videos where i was playing the Guitar Naked and says : I'm a Big Fan.
After discussing that for around 5 minutes, there's nothing else to talk to him about.
So i go into my little corner and go in Silent Mode.

At this point there's 20 people around me, and they all have their own Gang. Except me and the Girl from the beggining. We talked about some Anime heard some of her Music on her Ipod.
And slowly tried to get Close to her on our Common / Shared Subjects.

Then the Shit happens... A guy comes randomly and sits next to her. They start talking, shoving me out of the conversation.
Then i see them Kissing and Cuddling in FRONT OF ME.

WTF? Oooooh she's one of those Girls that Break up one day and Makup the next day.
Ah ok anyway. Now that that guy is there's no chance for anything, my hopes for anything are lost, and talking to her was a bit hard since she's constantly doing stuff with that guy.
What am i gonna do now?
Everyone around are Friends IRL and i'm just a guy who signed up on their Forum and am just a Forum Member, even though i'm one of the most known members, i'm still not one of their IRL friends.

So after some time passes and i'm drinking my second Large Pint of Beer....... OOH i hate beer btw. I also hated the beer i was drinking, the only reason i ordered a Second Large Pint was because i drank the First one too fast, i was the only one to drink it too fast.
Then everyone had a beer in front of them Except me.
Normally i wouldnt get a second but upon a moment of weakness i ordered another one.

Back to the part where i just drank my Second Large Pint of Beer, i Cross my hand and start looking around. Literally i'm looking around in Circles, the Beer got to me, i felt like when you Wake up in the Morning and have your eyes Wide Open, you cant Concentrate on one spot you just look around.
I'm like oh crap this is what being drunk is like? I wonder how people even think of Driving home.

Then the Shitty Fake Natchos Come.
The consisted of one of those Crappy Chip / Natcho Packs you get at supermarkets. The Packets they sell here and extremely smaller than the ones you can get in other countries. Possibly half Sized. They were the Standard Natchos Sold in the Supermarket, and let me say there's only one brand to buy here and they are CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP.
The Natchos came in a hot platter ( More like a plate ) with melted Chese and supposedly what was the sauce which wasnt to cover your Small Finger Nail if you put your finger in it.
I eat up some Natchos which quickly get cold and the Chese becomes like plastic and shit, obviously trying to Dip them in the so called sauce is impossible so i just eat up before they get eaten, then i just give up, it's too disgusting to eat plastic.

Aaaanyway...
At this point i tied my hands and just sat there looking at everyone talking to each other, i tried starting small talk with some of the people there on random bullshit Subjects of possible Common interest, but they only lasted for around 15 seconds or so...
So at this point there's nothing else to do everyone is having fun with their IRL friends and all, some BITCH, yes.... a BITCH came next to the guy sitting next to me and Sat on his Lap.

Oh snap... Not this kind of situation again...
She sat on his lap with her back to me. What was worse was that the Chairs were very very close, so her back was touching me and there was nowhere to move to.
Imagine a Situation where you have your hands tied and there's a Girl sitting on the lap of the guy next to you.
To add to that i've never had a relationship before so you propably cant imagine my feelings about these kind of situations.
It's like : Why him and not me?


Having my hands tied for the past 1 and a half hour i get very bored of those 15 second chit chat sessions. These Sessions happaned like 5-6 times in a 4 hour Period so it was a very boring night.
I did my best to stay there for as long as possible and not to leave from the bar like the Emo-Kid that didnt talk much. But enough is enough, i payed my Beer Bill and Just left, no one really cared when i said: Bye.

Went home and left it all behind.

Over the next couple of weeks that Girl started a couple more E-Fights for the exact same reasons, i couldnt take her MSN bullshit anymore and just Blocked her. The last thing i need is some psycho bitch who likes to fight and talk things through for hours, making me nervous over MSN.

She sent me some Messages on Facebook and i blocked her there as well. She was asking if i block people everytime they piss me off.
I sent her one of those long detailed replies and just blocked her. Cant be bothered with such people anymore, i've had enough experiences with them.